Friday, March 25, 2011

karachi and thatta

Man what a couple of days. In-country travel is always twice as exhausting as the rest of the trip. Yesterday I got up early and checked out of the hotel. I'd packed light for the Sindh trip and stored my suit case at the Serena. Met Ahsan, for all intents and purposes my babysitter for this trip but also a guy at AKFP who helps oversee the built environments work, including AKPBS, at the airport. The flight was delayed an hour or so, which wouldn't have been a problem except I had three meetings to get through in Karachi by the end of the work day and we were supposed to be landing at noon. The flight -- my first ever on a 747, I think -- was fine. I finished The Master and Margarita; more on that later.

Karachi airport is much bigger than Islamabad, which makes sense because Karachi is somewhere between 15-30 times bigger than Islamabad. It was hot as blazes and crowded as we walked out of the terminal and right toward a giant McDonald's, complete with Playplace. The drive from the airport to the Marriott, where we're staying, was great. Karachi is much more exotic than Islamabad, much more vibrant and alive-seeming. The buses, the rickshaws, the shops, the people walking in the road, the birds, the monuments. We didn't have any time to explore, though, as I was already well late for my first meeting.

It's past 10 and I'm tired from day two of this post, so I'm not going to get into any details now, but basically I had meetings with AKES, AKPBS and AKHS, in that order. None of them went as well as I'd hoped, but it's okay. Under the circumstances it could have been much worse.

Ahsan was with me during the last two, and afterward we took a drive around Karachi a bit. Well, the nicer parts, I guess. We drove out to the beach (didn't you know? Karachi is a major port) and walked around on the sand just after the sun had gone down. Lots of little kids running around, a camel ambled by, some couples wandering, and some older kids riding four-wheelers in circles. After that we went to Bar-B-Cue Tonight, a colossal restaurant that serves any grilled thing you can want, except, obviously, pork or anything we would call barbecue. But it was actually really delicious; we shared a couple of dishes and ended up ordering a second helping of the lamb. I also had my first-ever glass of lassi, a yogurt-based drink, which was delicious and very refreshing.

The hotel's nice but unremarkable. It's a Marriott. One thing: The bed is nicer than the bed in the Serena. Amazing.

Anyway, slept very well last night, woke up this morning a bit before 7:30, had breakfast with Ahsan and a couple of other AKF folks who are down in Karachi for various meetings and things. They all seem to be traveling all the time from one city to another. At 8:30, a big (20-seater) van picked us up in the front of the hotel, along with oh my god I need to finish this later.

Long story short: Today we went to the field. More later, I swear.

Alright, it's morning. Birds I'd never seen or heard before are trilling outside my window. To save myself and everyone from confusion, I'll keep writing as if this were yesterday. So "today" means Friday, March 25. There will be a new post for "today," Saturday, March 26.

As I was saying, the big van picked me, Ahsan and Youshey from AKPBS up in front of the hotel. Youshey was coming along to help guide us around the temporary shelters and the water and sanitation installations. The ride to Sujawal took about 2.5 hours, at least an hour of which was taken just getting out of Karachi. And it's not even like the traffic was that bad. Karachi is just enormous. I became enthralled by the brilliantly painted buses and trucks, to which I alluded in my first post from Pakistan. Hoping to get some good pictures of them today; yesterday all I could get was a bit of video. I took lots of little videos.

Sindh is flat as hell and as such you get a feeling of vastness just driving down the road. It's easy to see why it flooded so completely. But at the same time, it's hard to imagine just how much water there was, to be anywhere from three to TWELVE FEET DEEP across the plain. As everyone saw in the footage of the Japanese tsunami, the wrecking power of water is awesome, in the "scary as shit" sense of the word.

Sujawal is a town of about 15-20,000 people in the middle of Thatta District, on the other side of the Indus River from Karachi. That is, the side that flooded. There, we visited a Family Health Clinic run by AKHS, which serves as a base for one of their mobile medical teams. They have a pharmacy, do peri-natal care including deliveries, offer health consultations and provide some advanced care. For the more heavy-duty stuff, patients are referred either to government hospitals or to the AKU Hospital in Karachi, e.g. in the case of the farmer who, upon returning to his village and fields after the waters receded, tried to commit suicide by swallowing insecticide.

Dr. Bisham, who runs 22 of these clinics for AKHS, was our guide, and got in the van with us when we left. We drove a while longer on the highway and then left the paved road, ending up at a tiny village in the middle of nowhere. Temporary shelters are almost complete right next to the village, along with one additional shelter that houses the mobile medical team when it makes its twice-weekly visit. Families will be able to move in in the next week or ten days. But for the time being, they're still living in what can best be called squalor, in their devastated village. They have no income because their crops were destroyed; their houses, sagging wrecks, are unsafe; the ground is unclean because their animals have nowhere to go but in amongst the houses. Nowhere I visited in Afghanistan approached this in terms of sheer vulnerability and poverty. A few of the men showed us around, including their school and mosque (we didn't go in the mosque). They rebuilt the school after returning to the village, but the government-funded teacher hasn't returned since the flooding. So their kids are either idle or begging in Sujawal.

A tour of the nearly-complete shelters led to a discussion about improvements that had been made on the fly and then about what could be done to further improve the shelters. Basically, future shelters might have a solid door, slightly more clearance between the roof at the walls, and windows cut in the plastic sheeting that seals the houses from the wind.

We left that village and drove on to visit another mobile medical team. Their temporary shelter had been cut off by water last night -- apparently the ministry in charge of irrigation had left a tap open and now there was a small lake between the shelter and the road -- so they had set up shop in an abandoned school. People were lined up outside and inside a doctor, nurse and health educator were tending to patients. A girl lay on a makeshift bed with an IV drip going, the doctor asked a young boy some questions, the health educator was counseling a newly pregnant woman about nutrition. Flies were everywhere. Outside, an older villager explained how high the water had risen (twelve feet, you could see the high-water mark on the side of the school), how it had destroyed their village and how helpful the mobile teams were.

Our final stop was a village where the people had been able to move into the temporary shelters. They had set up the typical perimeter wall of thorny brush, with a single gate. This is to keep animals in and keep thieves out. We waited outside it for a minute while the men went and told the women to go back inside. Then we walked around, guided again by one of the older villagers. We saw how they'd set up their kitchens and the insides of the houses, installing their own shelves and bed mats. Such an obvious improvement over the wrecked houses. These villagers were having trouble getting water, however, because the water tanks had run out and it's too expensive to bring in more tanks. The village is just too remote. There was a debate between Ahsan and Youshey about the viability of installing hand pumps. Bore hills drilled to 30 feet had found brackish, undrinkable water, even this many miles inland. Youshey said that the next step had to be to drill to 80 or 90 feet, but Ahsan was adamant that in this part of the country, you'd have to drill to at least 170 feet to find fresh water, and maybe more. Too deep for a hand pump; the villagers would need a motor or to use animals to get the water. That's not realistic under the circumstances. The solution was left unresolved.

A bit sadder than I'd been in the morning, we piled back into the van and began the long drive back to Karachi. After a pit stop in Sujawal to drop off Dr. Bisham and use the bathroom (hellooo, loose movements), we continued on to a highway restaurant called Cafe Imran. There we had some hot tea with milk, just as a refreshment. It was very tasty. We got back to the hotel just after dark, around 7.

Upon being asked, I'd mentioned my desire to shop for handicrafts to take home. Youshey offered to drive me in his car to a mall in Clifton, the toniest Karachi neighborhood, and show me a couple of shops. I of course said yes, because how many opportunities in my life will I have to drive around Karachi with a native. Youshey is very friendly and his English is excellent. He's also a bit closer to my age than anyone else, maybe mid to late twenties. There was nothing really worthwhile in the mall, which didn't surprise me, but I'm still glad I went.

Back in the hotel, I realized I wasn't hungry, so I read a bit, watched a bit of crappy TV, and went to sleep. And now it's past 9 AM on Saturday, March 26 and I better get a move on if I'm going to see anything before we have to leave for the airport. One last thing: a few photos. Sorry to just throw them in at the end here.









Wednesday, March 23, 2011

pir sohawa

Just got back from a couple of hours touring F-7 and F-6, two of the nicer (nicest?) sectors of Islamabad, and going to Margalla Hills National Park. Our final destination: a viewpoint on a high ridge over the city called Pir Sohawa. I think we climbed about 1700 or 1800 feet to get there.

The cab driver -- this was recommended to me as the best way to get around -- was a really friendly guy named Tanvir. He took me to the Super Market and Jinnah Super Market, but they were not really what I was expecting. The shops are mostly for practical things like clothes, phones, etc. But I don't need any new Nike pants. The market that we did stop at, the name of which I forget but it starts with "K," had a couple of craft stalls but there wasn't really anything interesting there. I must have gone to the wrong places because I have a hard time believing that Kabul's craft shops are so vastly superior to Islamabad's.

Make myself a little sick being SUCH a tourist, but sometimes you just have to embrace it. It's that or not go anywhere.

Then we drove up to the aforementioned Pir Sohawa. The road twists and turns very sharply as it climbs. At one point we pulled off and got out, and Tanvir pointed out to me a spot where, last summer, a plane from Karachi crashed into the side of the hill, killing all 160 people on board. You can still see the path they cut through the forest to recover the bodies; the vegetation is very thick the whole way up.

Pir Sohawa, in addition to its views, boasts an enormous restaurant called The Monal. Seats something like 1200 people. The smell of grilling meat mingled with the roses and fumes from the passing cars and trucks. Some guys were playing tablas and singing. Took some short clips and photos but it was hard to see much of the view. Islamabad is a hazy city, or at least it has been since I got here.

One highlight: There were signs periodically on the way up saying things like, "Don't tease the monkeys, they can be dangerous," and, "Approaching the monkeys can be a hazard." Monkeys? In Islamabad? Why, yes! On the way down we passed a little troupe of them. Kind of medium-sized, just chilling by the side of the road. Obviously very used to being around people. Who knew?

Towards the end Tanvir started teaching me some Urdu. I won't even begin to try to transcribe it, but I learned, "What is your name?" and, "My name is Luke," and a couple of other basics.

Kind of an underwhelming trip, to be honest, but that's okay. All two hours of it set me back about 20 bucks. If nothing else it was great to leave the hotel for a while and see something different. Tomorrow morning, early, I leave for Karachi. I'll try to do some more prep this evening before I expire. Come on, 10 PM...

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

pakistan day

Was too busy and then too tired to post yesterday. Lasted just past 9 PM and then woke up at 5 AM. I'll get the hang of this time zone eventually.

Anyway, yesterday was productive. Did some prep work for my trip to Karachi, where I'll be meeting with three of our sister agencies: Aga Khan Planning and Building Services, AK Health Services and AK Education Services. Lunch again with Karim, Salman and Nusrat. We talked about the differences between Muslim and Christian sects, which was pretty enlightening for me and I hope for them a bit, too.

Spent a good chunk of the afternoon going over the finances for the OFDA flood response project with Nadeem, who's the grants finance officer at AKFP. It was great to just be able to sit with him and see how he's broken the budget down and how he's tracking each agency's spending. Helps that he's a really friendly guy and knows the budget backwards and forwards. Amazingly, this is the less-complicated of the two budgets that dominate his time. The other project he works on has eleven partners! I shudder just thinking about that, five is enough. More interestingly (to me, anyway), we went over how we can use some of the savings from certain parts of the project, like non-food item distribution, to cover parts of the project that need additional funding, like the mobile medical teams.

After that, Karim and I met with Mark A., the OFDA Humanitarian Program Specialist who deals with our project in-country. We talked about the lay of the land in terms of the response so far, and how USAID/OFDA was likely to move forward as the emergency part of the response comes to an end in most places. OFDA has been funding early recovery programming since the very beginning of the response, but funding for that type of work is no longer likely to come from them. However, they're trying to work with the rest of the USAID Mission to make the relief-to-early-recovery transition as coherent as possible.

We went over a couple of the issues that have come up with the project and there really is no replacement for a face-to-face meeting to get everyone on the same page. Not going to go into too much detail but the way forward is clear now. Can't ask for much more out of an hour-long meeting. Hopefully we'll get a chance to meet again next week, when I'm back in Islamabad.

Today is Pakistan Day, which means the office is closed and there's no work. I'm going to write a few emails and then venture out from the Serena for the first time. I've gotten some suggestions from Ahsan, who works on housing stuff and will be coming with us to Karachi tomorrow, about places to go and things to see. My friend from high school, Kate, who spent a chunk of her childhood in Islamabad, also gave me some recommendations. Karim said that if he was feeling up to it he'd give me a call and take me around, but his back was still hurting yesterday so we'll see. At the very least, I'll get to one or two of the big markets and a couple of the famous viewpoints in the hills just outside the city.

That's all for now, I guess. Probably more later when I get back from my excursion.

Monday, March 21, 2011

nawroz mubarak!

That is, Blessed Spring Equinox to you all! Nawroz is the Persian/Ismaili celebration of the beginning of spring. Had some cake with the whole AKDN staff about an hour ago to celebrate.

Today has been a bit of a blur, thanks to the jet lag. I have not yet taken a nap (good work, Luke!). Spent most of the day with Karim Nayani, who is coordinating the AKDN response to the flooding, including my grant. He got right down to business after greetings. We talked for a couple of hours, including ironing out some details about my in-country trips. Then went around and he introduced me to a bunch of people, most of whom I can't remember. But they included Nusrat, the Deputy Executive Officer of FOCUS Pakistan, and Salman, who heads up Aga Khan Cultural Services Pakistan and knows more about American foreign policy than most Americans I know. Very engaging. I ended up having lunch with the three of them -- rice and chicken and potatoes in some kind of sauce, not very good -- then doing some work and generally trying to stay awake until cake.

The office is very spiffy and new, although oddly devoid of artwork apart from a beautiful carved wooden screen that hides the copy machine. Karim's quite a bit older than I expected, probably in his 50s. He'd thrown his back out over the weekend, poor guy, lifting flower pots. But he was in good spirits all the same, as everyone seemed to be. Holidays do that, I guess. Nawroz is a big holiday for Ismailis.

I'm barely able to keep my thoughts together, so I'm going to head to the gym, get some exercise, eat dinner, and generally push through to 9 PM. Wish me luck.

coffee

The coffee in the hotel is out of this world good, I think the best coffee I've ever had, worthy of its own post. I was raptures last night drinking my little pot of decaf after dinner. I asked one of the staff: turns out they use local beans and roast them in the hotel.

Also, jet lag is pretty bad today, so coffee is pretty much what's keeping me afloat. If I can soldier through to a reasonable bed time tonight, I should be on normal footing tomorrow. My mantra for today: no naps, no naps, no naps, no naps, no naps, no naps...

Sunday, March 20, 2011

serena

I think I meant for my last post to be entitled, "they drive on the wrong side of the road here!" but it was 4:30 AM or some such stupid time and I forgot. At any rate, I was surprised, when I got into the car last night (the airport pickup went smoothly, name placard and all), to discover that Pakistanis have inherited British driving habits.

The flight from Doha to Islamabad was without incident; I watched something but at the moment I can't remember what it was. Maybe an episode of Family Guy, 30 Rock, Pinky and the Brain (!!!) and something else. Whatever, I was mostly zoned out and I think I fell asleep with about 30 minutes to go, because I literally have no memory between the, "Please put your seatbacks in the upright..." announcement and landing. Benazir Bhutto International Airport is small and chaotic. Immigration took 45 minutes or an hour, not too terrible, and my bag was blessedly on the carousel when I came through. The air smelled vaguely like piss as we made the quick walk to the waiting car and then we were off down the nice, smooth highway.

It was quite dark, so I didn't see a whole lot, but I did notice that big brightly-colored trucks that Pakistan is known for were pretty much the only other vehicles on the road. Can't wait to see some of those in daylight. Apparently the prime minister of Bhutan is or will soon be visiting, because there were big banners on bridges along the route that read, "The People of Pakistan Welcome Prime Minister of Bhutan" [sic], with pictures of Zardari and, I assume, Jigme Thinley (yes, I had to look that up).

The Serena is guarded pretty heavily. We went through three checkpoints, not counting the one on the highway. My suitcase was x-rayed twice and there was much weaving through concrete pylons and waving through by guards. The hotel is ridiculous, everything carved wood, inlaid marble and mosaics. As I discovered at the Kabul Serena, though, the thing that differentiates a five-star hotel from, say, a nice Marriott, is the service. As I was checking in -- note, it was 4:15 in the morning -- a man came up to me with a tray of juice in glasses and offered me one. When I asked this morning if they had any outlet adapters, I was told that one would be brought to my room. Everyone is obsequious but not obnoxiously so. It weirds me out and I don't think I could ever really be used to staying in places this nice.

Finally got to sleep around 5:30 AM after showering, taking some more Calms Forte (still not sure whether it works or not) and reading a bit more in The Master and Margarita. Woke up around ten when someone rang my doorbell and then opened the door, wondering if I would like an apple or orange, which he was holding on a tray. I said no and went immediately back to sleep. Turns out the "Do Not Disturb" sign is much more important in a hotel where they BRING FRESH FRUIT TO YOUR ROOM WITHOUT YOU ASKING. Woke up again around 12:30, stretched for half an hour or so, watched some news and went down for brunch. It was good but too expensive. I need to figure out what I'm going to do about meals cause there's no way I can afford to keep eating there. Room service might, amazingly, be cheaper. Anyway, this post has been crushingly boring, but then I haven't really done much, so a blow-by-blow of my sleeping and waking, plus "oh man this hotel is above my class," is the best I can do so far. My bad.

Better posts to come, I trust. But in the spirit of this post, I will report that the current plan is to take a nap because my body is telling me that I've been awake from 3 AM to 6:20 AM, and that does not fit our pattern.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

islamabad

Just checked into my room at the Serena. Fancy fancy. Tired/jet lagged/zonked out right now, so more tomorrow.

doh

DOH as in Doha International Airport, that is. Some minor mishaps at Dulles but nothing too terrible and maybe a good lesson learned for future long trips. I'm sitting next to my gate, which boards in a little over an hour, for the three-hour leg to Islamabad. Mishaps in the terminal aside, the Qatar Airways plane was great. The food was ok and the entertainment center (that's right, the entertainment center) had over 100 movies and 250 TV shows. Eat your heart out, United. Fucking "Marley & Me," I still can't believe that was the only option on the way back from Dubai last year... I watched "127 Hours" and most of "Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon" and then listened to Art Blakey Live at Birdland while I...

...started The Master and Margarita. Got about 80-90 pages in. Excellent so far, reminds me a bit of Fludd or The Third Policeman. Very lively writing, I obviously don't speak Russian but I imagine that this is a pretty first-rate translation.

DOH is very different from DXB, a lot less ostentatious and more normal-looking, although the duty-free is still mostly Bulgari, Dior, Seiko and the like. And it wouldn't be a Middle-Eastern airport without a large display of gold jewelry.

Last thing to report: the Calms Forte I bought to help me sleep may or may not have done so. Certainly didn't give me the crazy dreams that it's known for. Oh well. I'll try again tomorrow, er, tonight/tomorrow morning, when I get to the hotel at it's 5:45 PM for me and 2:45 AM for Islamabad.

One more thing: It wouldn't be an international trip if I didn't forget something. So here is this trip's item: my bathing suit.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

books read 2011

EDIT 1/31/2011: Worth noting that my pace for January has been slow because The Wire has taken up large chunks of time that would otherwise have been devoted to reading. One season to go...

EDIT 3/1/2011: Finished The Wire. Counting it as literature.

1. Aeschylus, Agamemnon
2. Virgil, The Aeneid
3. David Simon, The Wire
4. Patti Smith, Just Kids
5. Plato, The Apology of Socrates and Crito
6. Mikhail Bulgakov, The Master and Margarita
7. Michael Chabon, Maps and Legends
8. Frank Miller, The Dark Knight Returns
9. Anton Chekhov, The Duel
10. Ian Fleming, Casino Royale (shut up, it's a classic, plus I needed a break from Devils)
11. Fyodor Dostoevsky, Devils
11. Arthur Rimbaud, Illuminations
12. Jane Jacobs, The Death and Life of Great American Cities

Monday, December 06, 2010

books to be read

Time to update this list. Numbers removed for future adding/rearranging ease and because it's not really in order beyond the first two.

UPDATED 1/4/11 - I should read more classics. A part of me thinks I should have gone to St. John's College, so in lieu of trying to figure out what the classics are on my own, I'm going to throw a chunk of the St. John's reading list on here.

UPDATED 1/10/11 - Added some Jung.
UPDATED 4/15/11 - Added Dostoevsky and Melville

History of the Peloponnesian War, by Thucydides
Agamemnon, by Aeschylus
Apology, by Plato
Crito, by Plato

The Tanakh plus Jonah, Isaiah and Job
The Nature of Things, by Lucretius
The Aeneid, by Virgil
Confessions, by Augustine of Hippo
Matthew, Luke, Acts, John, I Corinthians, Romans
Don Quixote, by Miguel de Cervantes
Meditations, by Rene Descartes
Paradise Lost, by John Milton
Theologico-Political Treatise, by Baruch Spinoza
Discourse on Metaphysics, by Gottfried Liebniz
War and Peace, by Leo Tolstoy
Benito Cereno, by John Melville
Histories, by Herodotus
The Demons, by Fyodor Dostoevsky
The Violent Bear it Away, by Flannery O'Connor
The Master and Margarita, by Mikhail Bulgakov
The Gay Science, by Friedrich Nietzsche
Philosophy of Right, by GWF Hegel
Between Past and Future, by Hannah Arendt
Anton Chekhov's Short Stories
The Divine Comedy, by Dante
Faust, by Goethe
Heart of Darkness, by Joseph Conrad
Go Down Moses, by William Faulkner
Three Tales, by Gustave Flaubert
Psychological Types, by Carl Jung
Rimbaud
Genet
Bartleby, the Scriver, by Herman Melville
Moby Dick
Devils, by Fyodor Dostoevsky

ALSO:

The Autobiography of Malcolm X
The Death and Life of Great American Cities, by Jane Jacobs
Moral Man and Immoral Society, by Reinhold Niebhur
The Breaks of the Game, by David Halberstam
The Curve of Binding Energy, by John McPhee
Levels of the Game, by John McPhee
The Macrophenomenal Pro Basketball Almanac, by Freedarko
The White Tiger, by Aravind Adiga
The Big Short, by Michael Lewis
Great House, by Nicole Krauss
Democracy in America, by Alexis de Tocqueville
Zeitoun, by Dave Eggers
The Adventures and Misadventures of Maqroll, by Alvaro Mutis
Hermaphrodites and the Medical Invention of Sex, by Alice Dreger
Everything Ravaged, Everything Burned, by Wells Tower
Wolf Hall, by Hilary Mantel
Both Ways is the Only Way I Want It, by Maile Meloy
The Age of Wonder, by Richard Holmes
Appointment in Samarra, by John O'Hara
Go Tell It on the Mountain, by James Baldwin
Pale Fire, by Vladimir Nabokov
Sophie's Choice, by William Styron
The Lives of a Cell, by Lewis Thomas
The Nature and Destiny of Man, by Reinhold Niebhur
Blood Meridian, by Cormac McCarthy
Assassination Vacation, by Sarah Vowell
The Art of War, by Sun Tzu
On Heroes and Tombs, by Ernesto Sabato

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Thursday, June 24, 2010

running book list 2010 - bump

Bumped so I don't have to go looking for it every time it needs to be updated.

1. The Mismeasure of Man (and essays), by Stephen Jay Gould
2. Surely You're Joking, Mr. Feynman!, by Richard Feynman
3. A House for Mr. Biswas, by V.S. Naipaul
4. A Stillness at Appomattox, by Bruce Catton (second or third time)
5. The Lost Books of the Odyssey, by Zachary Mason
6. Speak, Memory, by Vladimir Nabokov
7. Applied Nutrition for Mixed Sports, by Lyle McDonald
8. Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman, by Haruki Murakami
9. The Looming Tower, by Lawrence Wright
10. Sherlock Holmes: The Complete Stories, Volume 2, by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
11. Silk Parachute, by John McPhee
12. All the King's Men, by Robert Penn Warren
13. The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo, by Stieg Larsson
14. The Girl Who Played With Fire, by Stieg Larsson
15. Encounters with the Archdruid, by John McPhee
16. The Girl Who Kicked the Hornet's Nest, by Stieg Larsson
17. Freedom, by Jonathan Franzen
18. Stretch to Win, by Ann and Chris Frederick
19. The Wonderful Story of Henry Sugar (and Six More), by Roald Dahl (again)
20. Me Talk Pretty One Day, by David Sedaris
21. The Lost City of Z, by David Grann
22. An Anthropologist on Mars, by Oliver Sacks
23. Kafka on the Shore, by Haruki Murakami
24. Bloodlands, by Timothy Snyder

Got to 2/month by the end of the year. Satisfied. Target in 2011: 30 books.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

home again

And back at work. Still catching up here, obviously. Some messes to clean up, I'm afraid. God, it would have been nice to have functioning email over there. Anyway, my luggage is still in Dubai but otherwise the rest of the trip back was fine. Yesterday I was jet-lagged as all get-out but I made it through to a reasonable bed time. Helped that Claire was down from Baltimore. Today I've been doing better so far but I suspect it will still be an early night.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

back in dxb

The last couple of days in Kabul were weekend days (well, until this morning). My first of the trip, in fact, so I took advantage by going on a little shopping excursion and just generally hanging out. The shopping was cool. We went to two stores. One was a furniture and wood carving place. I had fallen in love with a couple of pieces that Andrew had hanging on the wall of his house, smallish unvarnished wooden frames with metal honeycomb where a picture would normally go. They were really beautiful. Alas, none to be found. But the experience of shopping in a place like that was really cool, the owner had tea brought for us and chatted with us while we looked around.

The next shop was Andrew's rug shop, owned by one Wahid, who took the first shop owner's hospitality and amplified it about 90 million times. The guy just loves rugs and he's obviously doing very well. We sat and chatted for a while in the main room of the shop (the guy asked after Andrew's uncle, apparently they know each other rather well), completely surrounded on all sides by rugs hanging on the walls, stacked four feet high, layered on the ground. Some of the stuff in there was just gorgeous. Andrew told me to just tell him generally what I had in mind, so I did. Then we were off into another room and he was just tearing through a stack of rugs, throwing things on the ground and explaining what they were as he went, taking my responses and tailoring what he was looking for. The ultimate salesman, in particular because he genuinely didn't seem to care whether I bought anything or not. Naturally, I could not resist and bought two prayer rugs (small and cheaper than the really massive ones, of which Andrew bought two). Both are Baluch and about 25-30 years old.

The rest of the weekend was relaxing and pretty uninteresting. I exercised some, read some, watched a bit of TV. Spent last night in the Serena and watched the Champions League final on my king sized bed. The Serena is super nice but I'm really glad I spent the vast majority of the time in the guest house. If you're by yourself in a big fancy hotel like that, it's lonely. I guess I would have ended up making acquaintances if I'd been there for a while but, meh, not my kind of people. Plus it's freaking expensive, even with my handy-dandy AKDN-staff discount, which came to something like 35%.

Spent today in the office, chatting with Noor and Maiwand and generally getting ready to go. Oh, and I made another quick shopping trip with Aziz, one of the admin guys, to pick up a couple of extra things. Driving through Kabul at rush hour and then again in the middle of the day is quite different from doing it at night or just sticking to the little neighborhoods I did for most of the time. LOTS of traffic and not really much in the way of rules. Then it was back to the airport, where my ass was saved by a stranger named Naghida (sp?).

In short, I wasn't able to print my KBL-DXB ticket. So after going through the frisking and bag-searching between the main road and the last gate before the airport, the lone cop there wouldn't let me through. So this young woman, quite conveniently bilingual (tri, actually, as it turned out later), argued with the guy on my behalf. That didn't work, so she went inside, got the ticket agent to print my ticket and had a little kid run it back out to me so I could go through. Saved. The. Day. We chatted a bit once I got inside, after I had finished thanking her profusely. Turns out she's American but her parents are Afghan. She now works in Iraq for USIP and was just finishing up her first-ever trip to Afghanistan, which she took as R&R. Oh, and she speaks Arabic, too.

The trip to Dubai was smooth after that and now here I am, waiting to check in for the last leg. Not much looking forward to it. Next time I post it'll be from home!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

my first day off!

Is today! Yesterday was jammed full of meetings at AKF, just making the rounds and trying to gather as much intel as possible about what they're doing over here in natural resource management, education, civil society, etc. etc. I also had a meeting at USAID, which is on the US embassy compound and I have never seen a more heavily-fortified place in my entire life. Like whoa.

More about that another time, I have to go eat breakfast and then I'm going to take advantage of the day by going shopping with Keith, the head of monitoring and evaluation of AKF, and Andrew, the head of NRM. Andrew has been here for seven years, speaks excellent Dari and is evidently extremely knowledgeable about the shopping here. He collects rugs and is somewhat of a connoiseur of them. Should be a fun time.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

hurray!

THE WIZARDS WON THE DRAFT LOTTERY! THE WIZARDS WON THE DRAFT LOTTERY! HELLOOOOOO JOHN WALL!

If they pick Turner, I will be sad. But they can't, they have to pick Wall. Please, please, please let them pick Wall.

breakin' out of focus

Another attack this morning, this time more coordinated, but it was against the US base in Bagram, so not even inside Kabul. Still, after a week and a half of calm visit, things have picked up a little bit. But I went out last night for the first time, with some AKF people, a couple of people from IFES, and a guy named Robert, who used to work for CHF in Sudan as a Program Manager or something and with whom I corresponded occasionally but never spoke to or met. He was very nice and quite charitably mentioned some offhanded whatever about how I'd helped them on proposals or something. I may have done so somewhat but it was nice of him to give the impression that my role was less admin/logistical at CHF than it was. And Silja, who used to run CHF's enormous Pakistan program, works for IFES so of course all those people knew her. Small freaking world. It was a really nice time, excellent to have a steak (not rice and chicken or ground beef!) and a couple of beers (alcohol!) with some native English speakers. The steak wasn't half bad, either. The place we went is less than 100m from the front door of the guest house, so I just walked home with another guy who's staying there. Kind of wish I'd gotten a lift as the street was quite muddy and now my shoes are dirty, haha. I've decided once and for all that I'm going to get a shoeshine in the Dubai airport. It will be my first ever, haha.

This morning I went over to FMFB to meet with the head of microfinance over there, Karim. We chatted for about an hour and a half, just a general overview of where they're coming from and where they're going. And then we talked a bit about Afghanistan in general, and what he thinks really needs to happen in order for security and stability to come. I won't go into too much detail here but it was a very interesting conversation. There was a story in the NYT yesterday that he took issue with in particular.

Anyway, now I'm back at the FOCUS office. Everyone is meeting about the DIPECHO project, which is also being extended but with have I have nothing to do. But Alix just forwarded me approximately 18 million emails from my work accounts, which I still can't access, so I'm just going through those bit by bit. That's enough work for now. This afternoon we'll do the programmatic work shop, insh'allah.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

oh my god

So there was a suicide attack in Kabul today. Bad one, too. But it was in a different part of the city from where I am so I didn't even hear the blast or find out about it until a couple of hours later. Everyone is taking it completely in stride, so I'm not particularly worried about it.

The thing that has freaked me out is, well, first read this story.

Read it? Okay, I was on that plane on Sunday, less than 24 hours before it crashed into the mountains with 43 people on board. THAT has freaked me out. The brother of the FOCUS regional program manager for Badakhshan, Safdar, with whom I had dinner in Faizabad three days ago, was on the plane.

Monday, May 17, 2010

So I told Yousef last night about my cheeseburger yearning, and this morning he apparently told the admin guys here to order me one for lunch. I didn't ask for him to do that, and honestly I'd rather wait until I get home to have one. And I DEFINITELY do not want to be the only person having food brought from outside. But Aziz (one of the admin guys) came up and asked whether he should order just one or if anyone else would be eating one and I tried to tell him that I didn't want one, and that I didn't even ask for one for myself, let alone did I know whether anyone else wanted one. This feels too special or something and I hate that shit. But Aziz's English isn't great and Yousef is at prayers, so I ended up just saying, "Fuck it," (to myself) and saying, "Yes, sure go ahead and order one," (to Aziz). I'm sure Yousef thought he was doing me a nice favor and the thought counts for a lot in this context. If everyone were ordering cheeseburgers this wouldn't be a problem. Now I'm just whining and I should be happy that I'll be getting to eat something other than the Afghan staples.

UPDATE: I'm relieved to report that the burger was truly awful and barely deserved to call itself a burger. And there was no cheese. Thank god.

back in Kabul

Yesterday was pretty leisurely: I just woke up, ate breakfast, packed and went to the AKF office for a bit, then headed to the airport for the trip back to Kabul. Expectedly, the flight was delayed by an hour and a half or so. Unexpectedly, there were a ton of expats waiting to fly. Apparently, starting last week, flights in and out of Faizabad have been cut dramatically and it's only by luck that I could go when I did. They're building a new, paved airstrip, which is great because the current one is just corrugated steel strips. The next flight isn't until this coming Sunday, so anyone who wanted to get back to Kabul this week had to leave yesterday. It was nice to chat with Americans. They were all very friendly and one even knew my colleague Andrea from when she worked here with Hopkins. A few of them were with an adventure travel company that's been working with the AKF-sponsored guest houses in the Wakhan that I drove past.

The flight was cloudy and uneventful and then I pretty much came right back to the office, with a quick stop at the guest house to drop off my stuff. At dinner met and chatted with a Canadian guy who's doing new product development for FMFB (First Microfinance Bank - largest microcredit operation in Afghanistan, owned by AKFED). Sida is his name, although I have no idea if I'm spelling that right. After dinner I ended up watching the last half of Frost/Nixon and some sports (cricket, soccer, Nadal-Federer). Towards the end one of the Afghan guys who's staying at the house while he takes English classes joined me and we chatted a bit. And I finished Speak, Memory. Awesome book. I've had headaches the past two evenings, incidentally. Not sure what that's about.

Today has been quite slow so far, after an infuriating while trying to have a conversation with M&D I came to the office. We didn't have internet until about 30 minutes ago; apparently the rather mild storm they had yesterday and the day before was causing all the connectivity issues. It's still coming and going now. So I did some other boring but necessary stuff. We're waiting for Maiwand to get back from Mazar-i-Sharif so we can start in on the budget and financials workshop. Hope he's back soon cause it's almost noon. But hey, that's Afghanistan, I guess. You have to assume that everything will be delayed.

Oh, and cheeseburgers have been ordered for lunch :-)

Saturday, May 15, 2010

May 14 and 15

NOTE: These posts were written on the day indicated but I didn’t have internet until just now. If you can make it all the way through them, enjoy.

Friday, May 14

Last night, at dinner, after about thirty minutes of being the only non-Dari speaker at a table full of 10 or 12 of them, it turned out that the guy immediately to my right and immediately across from me both spoke great English. The one across from me, Mohammed, tutors AKF staff in English and the one to my right, Abdul Nasir (who, funnily enough, had better English) teaches IT skills to AKF staff. They both grew up in Pakistan, I assume as refugees although I didn’t ask. Anyway, they were both extremely friendly and engaging. The conversation ended up running for two and a half hours; we talked about everything from the 9/11 conspiracy theory that the US government did it (apparently quite widely accepted in Pakistan) to homeopathy to health care reform. The guy to my right had studied homeopathy in Pakistan. The internet is an amazing thing. At any rate, it was a really stimulating conversation.

I slept pretty well and woke up at the entirely reasonable hour of 7 AM. Breakfast was pretty plain, even by Afghan standards: flat bread and honey and Nescafe. Then Iqbal came by and we were off to see some School Emergency Response Team (SERT) practice sessions, first at Ishkashim Girls’ School and then at a coed school at a small village about 30 minutes away. Basically, what happens in the drills is that everyone assembles as if they were at school (today is Friday, weekend here) and then a school leader calls out through a megaphone that there’s been a disaster. Everyone assembles in their various teams –information, logistics, search and rescue, first aid– and snaps into action. The search and rescue teams go into a classroom that has been upturned for the purpose and finds someone lying on the ground. Some of the members have shovels and picks in case they need to get something heavy off. They put the “victim” on a stretcher and carry them outside to the waiting first aid team, which does a quick triage and then applies disinfectant and bandages and so on. Once their done, they carry the body to the logistics team, which has arranged for a vehicle to take the victim to the clinic. The information team is running around recording everything: age of victim, types of injuries, etc.

The girls had learned much earlier, under CBDRR I and practiced a lot more, so they were quite impressively quick and well-organized. The coed school had just been trained, under the DIPECHO grant. So they were a bit more discombobulated, but had a couple of very good actors as “victims.”

We took a quick detour to a craft shop of items made by hand by materials found in the hills around here (lots of semiprecious stones) and then I got dropped back off at the guest house for lunch.

After lunch, we piled back in the Land Cruiser and drove off into the Wakhan Valley. It’s dry, dusty and rocky. Even the cultivated land is full of rocks. The people up here are subsistence farmers and shepherds for the most part; although AKF has recently started to help some people turn their houses into guest houses (basically bed and breakfasts) for adventuresome tourists. Apparently this is starting to catch on. Anyway, our ultimate destination was the first major village in the Corridor, about 60km (2 hours) from Ishkashim. There we saw a Community Emergency Response Team (CERT) demonstration of a more complex emergency: earthquake plus rock fall. This team had drilled quite a lot and was very impressive and fast. We also saw a mitigation project there, a flood retention wall built entirely by hand from local materials.

After each drill and visit, Iqbal introduced me to the assembled people and we had a chance to thank each other: them to Iqbal and me basically for caring and helping them learn things that have made helped them enormously, and me to them for allowing me to visit and providing me with hope and encouragement that the work I do in an office in DC actually makes a difference somewhere. It hit home these past couple of days why field visits are so important: Our offices in the US are so far removed from the purpose of our work, and that can make it difficult to find motivation and easy to get cynical or discouraged. But coming out here, seeing everything that I’ve read and written about actually happen, is just an amazing experience. It’s also quite humbling to watch Iqbal and the other staff here. Not to take away from what I do at work, because without that the rest wouldn’t be possible, but what I got to see today was the really important part of the whole chain. Very cool.

Hopefully I’ll get to continue my conversation with Mohammed and Abdul Nasir tonight at and after dinner, and then tomorrow it’s back to Faizabad. So much time in the car for such a short trip, but it was worth every second, every jolt as we crossed a stream or shuddered across some rocks.

Oh, and rest assured: there are photos and videos of everything.

Saturday, May 15

So last night, sure enough, the conversation picked up where it had left off with my new friends. We ate dinner and then watched a bunch of TV –Korean soap operas translated into Persian and censored (women’s bare legs, arms, and anything below the collarbone), Afghan Idol (what a trip that was), Al Jazeera and BBC in English– and just kept up a patter the whole time. A bunch of the other men at the guest house joined and it was just a “nice time,” as Mohammed kept saying.

This morning, woke up, ate, packed, and then after some goodbyes to Iqbal, Mohammed and Abdul Nasir, it was off to Faizabad. Didn’t take as many pictures this time, but it was surprising just how different the view was A) from the other side of the car and B) from the other direction. Pics would generally have been the same, though. But we crossed the place where the road had been completely washed out utterly without incident or even my noticing it. I was kind of disappointed, to be honest, haha. The trip was shorter, 6.5 hours on the dot, and after a quick lunch here I am back in a bedroom at the FOCUS guest house. Gonna try to get some exercise in a little bit, the thought of how out of shape my already-out-of-shape self will be when I get home is mildly depressing. Oh, and take a shower. No running water in Ishkashim. Tomorrow it’s back to Kabul around mid-day. My flight is scheduled for noon but we’ll see…

Thursday, May 13, 2010

ishkashim

Iqbal, the Ishkashim CBDRR project coordinator, got to Faizabad last night. We left early this morning for the 8-hour drive to Ishkashim. What an adventure. Road was washed out, many people waiting, we crossed anyway. Drove through half a dozen flocks of sheep, with the shepherds walking alongside beating them out of the way of the car. Forded ten or more streams. All through a beautiful valley, approaching the snow-capped Hindu Kush. Now in Ishkashim, at the FOCUS office. Saw a great presentation by Iqbal and Ejaz (the DIPECHO-CBDRM program manager). Met most of the staff here. Iqbal and Ejaz both speak excellent English, too, which helps. I would have gone crazy on the drive if I hadn't had someone to talk to, especially someone who knows the area well.

Oh and we stopped at a community where FOCUS has done major work, including a canal to divert water around the village instead of allowing it to seep into the soil and foundations of the houses, where it was making everything unstable. Met the key religious guy there and the head of the CERT (community emergency response team). I'm in a daze. Also, we were as high as 10000 feet today and now around 8500, so that might have something to do with it.

Tomorrow we're going to check out some school trainings and drills and then go up into the Wakhan Corridor to see mitigation projects. For now, time to head out of here and back to the guest house.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

bagh-i-babur and faizabad

Well, yesterday afternoon I went to Bagh-i-Babur (Babur's Gardens) with Noor. Freaking awesome guy, that Noor. We took a long route around Kabul to get there; it was neat to see parts of the city I hadn't in the first few days. I'd been confined pretty much to Wazir Akbar Khan, the somewhat upscale neighborhood where all the AKDN offices are ("white powder money" people with armed guards live across the street from both the Guest House and the FOCUS office, which somewhat paradoxically makes the respective streets relatively safe).

The gardens are beautiful, it makes me proud to be a part of AKDN when I see the fruits of a project like the restoration that AKTC did six or seven years ago. Urban oasis, indeed, especially given that the rest of Kabul is dusty and drab. I've got pics that I'll upload as soon as I'm back in the States. Also there are restored versions of Babur's tomb (the man himself was an important king ~500 years ago, died in India but loved Kabul so much that they transporte his remains there to be buried), the marble Shah Jahan mosque and the Queen's Palace, which had an exhibit of gorgeous early-19th-century British drawings of Kabul on display. Noor and I wandered around a bit and then had some hand-made ice cream. Some students were smoking hookah on a little slope nearby and motioned me over while Noor went to pay for the ice cream (called shiriakh). Noor came back and when I told him he said, "Oh, let's go over, it would make them very happy." So we did. One of them spoke a little English but most of the time we just sat and they talked with Noor while he translated. Nice guys, engineering students.

This morning I left for Faizabad. The airport must be the safest place on Earth: my bags got searched three times and x-rayed and I got frisked five times. The flight was late but no big deal, the waiting room had plenty of good people-watching and I'm really enjoying Speak, Memory. All Afghans in the domestic room, with two or three exceptions. Very informal, too, when a flight was ready to leave a guy would just come in from the tarmac and yell, "Herat!" or something and then people would crowd into some buses and roll on out to the plane.

The flight was awesome. We went over some really high (glacier-covered) peaks. Beautiful the whole way. Faizabad itself is pretty, although nobody here speaks much English except the AKF logistics/security guy. And no internet in the guest house (I'm at the AKF office). Speaking of which, it's late and I should probably roll on out. Leaving for Ishkahsim at the crack o' dawn tomorrow. Will report more later!

Monday, May 10, 2010

cursed internet

Well, yesterday was a day of mighty struggle to get and stay online. The IT guys from AKF (FOCUS doesn't have its own) were on leave yesterday or something, so one of the admin guys here, Gul, signed me on with his username. But for some unknown reason, it's on a timer and just cuts out after a while. What the fuck. And then at the guesthouse I couldn't get online at all, but it was such a tease: the wifi connection was recognized by my computer but there was something messed up with the firewall or something. Anyway, Yousef, the Canadian financial guy, showed me how to fix it this morning (I think). And the IT guys are coming today to set me up properly in the office. Oy.

Anyway, apart from that yesterday was nice. The weather is beautiful, 70s and dry, and it even rained for a few minutes yesterday, which killed the dust for an hour or two. Just like Santiago, the mountains in the distance are way more beautiful when you can actually SEE them. I've been reading the Sphere Project Humanitarian Charter and Minimum Standards in Disaster Response, which Maiwand had sitting on his desk, in the down times when I can't get online. Very interesting, practical info. I'd skimmed sections of it before but never given it a good read. Currently I'm working on "Minimum Standards in Food Security, Nutrition and Food Aid" - i.e. the bit that I find most interesting. The first section was "Common Standards" (the ones that apply to all sectors), then "Hygiene Promotion and Water and Sanitation." Not a bad use of time given the options, honestly.

I've got my plane ticket to head to Faizabad tomorrow and it looks as though I'll be able to get to Ishkashim and the border after all. There was a security incident in Warduj a bit over three weeks ago, so they weren't letting cars through for a while, but things are stable enough now that even marked cars are allowed (and I'll be in an unmarked car, you can be sure). The guys here are fanatical about security and won't even go themselves if things are unsafe, so if they say it's okay, it's okay. I'm excited to see some of the program activities. Apparently I'll be mostly seeing DIPECHO-funded (i.e. EU) stuff because they're a little ahead of my grant in terms of the schedule: past the evaluation stage and into the actual work. I'll take lots of pictures.

I'm still working off the jet lag somewhat, but I think today I'll finally be on a normal-ish schedule. Napped from 6-7 last night and then had no trouble falling asleep later after a call with Nashir (CEO of FOCUS Afghanistan) at 9. That's pretty unheard of for me.

Sunday, May 09, 2010

day two

Got to Kabul yesterday morning. Missed my driver at the airport so I caught a ride with a couple of locals who work for IRD. After a brief adventure, they dropped me off at the AKF offices on Wazir Akbar Khan (a major street). Nice guys, especially the English-speaking one.

Met with Kevin, the CEO of AKF,A right after I got in, then went around and met everyone. The HR guys, Cipta and Donny (both Indonesian), and the admin guys, Ramin and I-forget-the-other-one's-name (both Afghan), are really friendly. Took a trip to the Ministry of the Interior to register with the government, which was interesting. The driver took a reeeally long route back -- expats have to be driven everywhere by the local drivers and the route changes every time as a precautionary measure. The streets here are unlike anything I've ever seen. Choked with dust (the air literally smells like an old bookshelf), full of cars and people moving around without much rhyme or reason, mostly unpaved and really, mostly rutted so much that even a Land Cruiser pitches and yaws like a rowboat in a hurricane. And there are AK-47s everywhere. Cops, Afghan army, private security.

Anyway, then it was back to the AKF office to get my computer fixed, and then to the guest house to put my luggage down, take a shower and have some lunch. The shower was, surprisingly, scalding. Then over to the FOCUS offices to meet everyone (except Maiwand, the program manager, who's in Islamabad waiting for a UK visa). Did some work, then back to the AKF offices to pick up my computer. One of the IT guys, whose name I also forget (I'm going to have a hard time with names...there are a lot of staff and a lot of them have longish names that I don't catch on the first go-round), came back with me to the guest house to hook me into the wifi here. He's really friendly, too, and speaks good English. He studied in India and a lot of his family lives in Toronto. We talked about a lot of things, including how Kabul has changed since he was a little kid and about differences in marriage traditions in Afghanistan and the US/Canada. Really interesting conversation.

Talked with Claire and watched some TV. Dinner was awkward as crap because it was me and eight Afghans, only one of whom speaks any English at all. It was silent. I ate as fast as possible and then absolutely passed out at like 8:50.

Woke up at 4:30 this morning, ended up Skyping with Alix from AKF USA, and Vale, of all people. She's going to get engaged. Holy crap. Then did a few exercises, ate a much friendlier breakfast with the two Afghans I spent the most time with yesterday (waiting around at the AKF office and riding from one place to another). They're HIV educators in Kandahar, but they're on their way to spend a month in Pul-i-Khumri for training. The one that speaks English (kind of) is nice and this morning I introduced him to granola. He is a big fan and ended up having two big bowls. There's no brewed coffee, just Nescafe, but whatever.

Okay, that's enough for now. The car is coming to get Yousef and I in fifteen minutes and I need to get dressed and get my stuff together for the day. More later.

Saturday, May 08, 2010

dxb

Hello from beautiful Dubai International Airport! Not much to report, really, except that wifi is free and a cup of decaf costs six dollars. I would almost consider getting a day room (I'm eligible for reimbursement because my layover is over 8 hours) just to have somewhere to stow my stuff, but it's not worth it. I can check in in four hours so I think I'll just wander around, check out the duty-free shops and then plant myself somewhere

I'm traveling with one of the little netbooks from work. Do not see the appeal. It's not that much lighter or smaller than my laptop and so much more awkward to type on. Oh well, shouldn't complain too much.

Oh, one last thing: running list of things I forgot to bring:
1) cell phone charge
2) rain jacket
3) any kind of jacket or warm anything except my green sweater

Oops

Friday, April 16, 2010

New links on the right. Global Health Report (blog), Emergency Nutrition Network, Valid International.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

running book list 2010

Before it gets too late in the year to start this, here goes:

1. The Mismeasure of Man (and essays), by Stephen Jay Gould
2. Surely You're Joking, Mr. Feynman!, by Richard Feynman
3. A House for Mr. Biswas, by V.S. Naipaul
4. A Stillness at Appomattox, by Bruce Catton (second or third time)
5. The Lost Books of the Odyssey, by Zachary Mason
6. Sleep, Memory, by Vladimir Nabokov
7. Applied Nutrition for Mixed Sports, by Lyle McDonald
8. Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman, by Haruki Murakami

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

realization

I have lost the ability talk about some political issues. When someone brings up health care reform, or the Christian right, or the Democrats' most-recent fuckup or chickening-out, or the Supreme Court intellectually-dishonest and hypocritical disaster du jour, I will usually have a pretty solid idea what they're talking about and the impulse to start/join the conversation. That impulse will quickly and decisively be overwhelmed by lightheadedness and a need to sit down and breathe deeply. And talk about something less nauseating, like "Love Actually." (To be clear, I find "Love Actually" nauseating and painful to watch.)

I wonder if it would be different if I didn't hang around the choir so often. There's no argument, just one-upping each other with arguments we all agree on and anecdotes we all find sickening until we're (I'm) hysterical and upset. At this rate I'm either going to mellow out completely, tune out completely, or become a conservative just to keep the conversations joinable. Of those three, I'm sad to say the second is probably the most likely. Sad because that's exactly what the people doing the things that make me upset want. They want me crushed and out of the way. A fourth option would be to find some conservative friends.

Friday, February 05, 2010

need to read

Re-read 1984. "Red Riding" quartet, by David Peace.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

books stacked on my floor to be read

1. The Mismeasure of Man, by Stephen Jay Gould
2. A House for Mr. Biswas, by VS Naipaul
3. The Tin Drum, by Gunter Grass
4. Speak, Memory, by Vladimir Nabokov
5. Shadow Country, by Peter Matthiessen

Friday, December 18, 2009

books i need to read now

Okay, new list. I'll keep adding to the previous one, slowly. These are books that need reading (in no particular order; bold indicates priority):

1. Zeitoun, by Dave Eggers
2. The Tin Drum, by Gunter Grass (new translation by Breon Mitchell)
3. The Bin Ladens, by Steve Coll
4. The Adventures and Misadventures of Maqroll, by Alvaro Mutis
5. Hermaphrodites and the Medical Invention of Sex, by Alice Dreger
6. Everything Ravaged, Everything Burned, by Wells Tower
7. Wolf Hall, by Hilary Mantel
8. Both Ways is the Only Way I Want It, by Maile Meloy
8. The Age of Wonder, by Richard Holmes
9. Appointment in Samarra, by John O'Hara
10. Go Tell It on the Mountain, by James Baldwin
11. Pale Fire, by Vladimir Nabokov
12. Speak, Memory, by Vladimir Nabokov
13. A House for Mr. Biswas, by VS Naipaul
14. Sophie's Choice, by William Styron
15. The Lives of a Cell, by Lewis Thomas
16. The Nature and Destiny of Man, by Reinhold Niebhur
17. The Mismeasure of Man, by Stephen Jay Gould
18. The Autobiography of Malcolm X
19. Blood Meridian, by Cormac McCarthy

That should be a good start.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

i am going to try to list all the books i have read this year

Came across something called the 50 books project. Obvious goal was for the participants to read 50 books in 2009. I didn't get close, but here's a list of what I did read. There must be more that I'm forgetting and I'll add as I remember others. In no particular order:

1. The White Man's Burden, by William Easterly
2. Lolita, by Vladimir Nabokov
3. The Death of Ivan Ilych, by Leo Tolstoy
4. The Mantle of the Prophet, by Roy Mottahedeh
5. Midnight's Children, by Salman Rushdie
6. Disgrace, by J.M. Coetzee
7. Waiting for the Barbarians, by J.M. Coetzee
8. Slow Man, by J.M. Coetzee
9. 2666, by Roberto Bolano
10. Eichmann in Jerusalem, by Hannah Arendt
11. Infinite Jest, by David Foster Wallace
12. The Varieties of Scientific Experience, by Carl Sagan
13. Alphabet Juice, by Roy Blount
14. Open, by Andre Agassi
15. Ficciones, by Jorge Luis Borges (in translation)
16. Watchmen, by Alan Moore
17. Athletic Body in Balance, by Gray Cook
18. Athletic Development, by Vern Gambetta
19. Homicide, by David Simon
20. The Devil in the White City, by Erik Larson
21. A Tranquil Star, by Primo Levi (again)
22. The Wheel on the School, by Meindert DeJong (again)
23. No Country for Old Men, by Cormac McCarthy
24. In the Land of Invented Languages, by Arika Okrent
25. A Spot of Bother, by Mark Haddon
26. A Wanderer in the Perfect City, by Lawrence Weschler
27. As I Lay Dying, by William Faulkner
28. The Razor's Edge, by W. Somerset Maugham (again)
29. Humboldt's Gift, by Saul Bellow
30. The Little Prince, by Antoine du Saint-Exupery
31. Logicomix, by Apostolos Doxiadis and Christos Papadimitriou
32. A Fan's Notes, by Frederick Exley

Monday, December 07, 2009

tight words/names/titles

Can't be bothered to go back through all my old posts and find the original list, so I'm just going to recreate and expand. Here will be an ongoing list of words, names and titles that I think are awesome and worth noting.
  • D'Brickashaw Ferguson - football player
  • Raise High the Roofbeam, Carpenters - by JD Salinger
  • Go Tell it on the Mountain - by James Baldwin
  • phenylalanine - amino acid
  • Takeo Spikes - football player
  • Let the Right One In - movie
  • International Church of the Reign of God - church
  • United House of Prayer for All People - church
  • Wide Sargasso Sea - by John Steinbeck
  • Malagasy - a person from Madagascar
  • The Curve of Binding Energy - by John McPhee

Saturday, November 21, 2009

michigan - ohio state 2009

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

two things

First: Step Rideau! I was listening to Texas Fred yesterday and I just enjoy so much some of the music he plays. Specifically, the up-beat, party, can't-not-move zydeco. The slower, more ballad-y stuff I don't like at all. But the fun stuff rocks. So after a little research I finally went and got myself a starter album: Don't Ask Why, by Step Rideau and the Zydeco Outlaws. It's an A.

Second: Steven Pinker's review of Gladwell's new book is just spot-on. A particular gem: "In the spirit of Gladwell, who likes to give portentous names to his apercus, I will call this the Igon Value Problem: when a writer's education on a topic consists in interviewing an expert, he is apt to offer generalizations that are banal, obtuse or flat wrong." Money. Bad typo in there, though, a parenthetical remark has no close parenthesis. OOPS.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Because I'll think this is funny to look back on in six months, here's my starting lineup this week for the East Silver Spring Pandas:

QB Philip Rivers
RB Michael Turner
RB Joseph Addai
RB Ricky Williams
WR Braylon Edwards
WR Devery Henderson
TE Kellen Winslow
D/ST SAINTS
K Dan Carpenter

I should win in a walk, but that might just be the three-game win streak talking.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Sunday, October 04, 2009

hooks

I get a lot of pleasure from finding songs that form the hooks for other songs that I like. Of course, this is not a particularly special or unique trait; lots of people are trying to make a living making new music out of the old to begin with, let alone simply enjoying what others are doing. Anyway, it's fun to hear "Eye Know" and think, "Peg." This is on my mind because I went out last night for my friend Jake's birthday and the DJ at Saint Ex was playing a fun (if not particularly original or adventurous--but hey, it was Saint Ex) mix. And he was doing the real way, with records on a pair of turntables, messing with speed and blending songs into each other. He did the Sinnerman-to-Get-By transition and at another point played the source of the hook for Common's "The Light" and then obviously played "The Light" itself. Hadn't heard that hook before so I asked him what it was. He told me, well, this:

Just for fun, here's "The Light" (beat by one of the greatest ever at making new music from old, J Dilla):


And because I feel like it, here's Sinnerman and Get By, and Peg and Eye Know.



UMG sucks and won't allow embedding, but here's Get By





Hurray for music.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

reading update

A few things I've been reading recently:
  • Finished The White Man's Burden. Interesting and the guy certainly has good points to make, but in the end way too far off in the Friedman/Gladwell end of the pool. Cutesy, lots of fluff and lots of using anecdotes or clever framing to make things appear the way the author wants. But not so clever that it's comfortable to read and accept.
  • Finished "The Death of Ivan Ilyich" and "Happy Ever After" and started "The Cossacks," all by Leo Tolstoy. Happy Ever After was good and such but "TDOII" was just spectacular. Tolstoy really didn't think too much of the bourgeoisie and petty upper class. Devastatingly incisive and observant without being sarcastic. Not that I read Russian, but I think the translation could probably have been a little more elegant. Not sure what to think of "The Cossacks" yet.
  • Cool article about caloric restriction and longevity. Intermittent fasting is pretty interesting. Not really interested in it for myself at the moment but there seems to be a lot of anecdotal and experiential evidence that it has benefits all over the place.
  • Another awesome article, this one about the potential of synthetic biology, and also somewhat about the issues and pitfalls that people are worried about.


I need a new book.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

fantasy football is fun

The end. Time to get back to Staffing Time Allocation for Africa. Yaaayyyy.

Monday, August 31, 2009

pubmed!

Well, I can't believe it's taken me this long but I finally discovered PubMed. Free online journal articles about every medical-related subject imaginable. Wheeee!!!!

Gold mine

Monday, August 24, 2009

30 days

Well, it's been exactly one month since my last post. And I just got back from a week at Emerald Isle with the fam and Bill and the Herschkowitzes and (to a lesser extent than years past) the other house. We had a wonderful time (thanks again, M&D!), relaxing, swimming, playing tennis and scrabble and celebrity (an improvement on simple charades), kayaking, etc. Plus the weather was just killer until yesterday morning when we were packing and it drizzled/rained.

In other news, I finally found the takedown of Paleo lifestyle people that I've been hoping to find since I first came across Conditioning Research and Mark's Daily Apple last year. It's here (an interesting read even if you don't know what I'm talking about): Paleofantasies of the perfect diet. Basically, I've always thought that the Paleo model was, well, not as well-thought-out as its fervent adherents might like. And that's putting it gently. There's something inherently appealing about the idea that if we could only return to our pre-agricultural roots we'd be healthy and strong again. But if you think about it for more than fifteen seconds, you start to find all kinds of holes in the logic.

Also, as I delve more and more into Lyle McDonald (of BodyRecomposition) and his forums (both the nice one on his main site, and the hidden and vastly more entertaining Monkey Island forums (the "mean" forums), I've begun to realize how deeply stupid a lot of the stuff online is, even stuff that on the surface looks legit. CrossFit, Paleo, T-Nation, most products from Eric Cressey, Mike Robertson, Alwyn Cosgrove, or whoever. Garbage, or, even if not garbage, vastly inferior and often much more expensive than whatever it's derived from. I've been reading Lyle's stuff for a few months now and from his style and forums always thought of him as kind of uptight and obsessed with keeping things clean and nice. However, the mean forums are pretty much completely uncensored. Much more awesome (and geeky).

I am a dork.

Friday, July 24, 2009

newspapers and a wedding video

The piece in the New York Review this issue about the rise of blogs and the decline of newspapers is really, really interesting, perhaps the most well-though-out and engaging thing I've read about how things are and they way they're going. Usually these things seem to take polemical form. Newspaper defenders say, "Blogs are parasites on all our hard work," and bloggers (at least the ones I read) go, "The MSM is out of touch and does nothing but defend the status quo," and everyone gets plugs their ears and says, "LALALALALALA," a la Stephen Colbert. Happens in many arenas, I suppose. But Michael Massing doesn't seem to have an axe to grind here, he's just curious about what's up. Very refreshing. Although I have to say, the article was ever so slightly harder to take seriously because of the inclusion of Ross "Douche Hat" Douthat. That nickname is just too funny.

On an unrelated note, awesome wedding video. These people are cool:

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

hum-te-tum

Finished Midnight's Children a while ago now. I liked it a lot but Booker of Bookers? It wasn't THAT good. Now, I'm about 150 pages into The Mantle of the Prophet and almost done with No Country for Old Men. TMOTP is pretty academic in structure and tone but it's engaging and the subject matter (Iranian and Eastern Islamic history) is so new to me that I'm really enjoying it. The author focuses on individuals as a way to examine the larger history, which, considering the apparently huge volume of interesting characters in Iranian history, was a pretty good choice on his part. NCFOM is pretty much exactly the same as the movie version. I mean exactly. Plot, characterization, tone. If it were a graphic novel the Coen brothers would have just made a frame-for-frame recreation. Entertaining but ultimately not that interesting. One difference: The book does more overt philosophizing (think monologues) than the movie.

In other news, I interviewed for a new job at CHF but don't think I'm going to get it. That's alright, though, it was worth it just to get myself out there in a positive way as a possible candidate for other job openings. And it got me to update my resume and get some more experience interviewing. Both valuable things.

In training news, I hurt my back a little over two weeks ago but it healed in a week. I did some lower-intensity workouts last week and played in my summer league games and with Joose on Sunday and then yesterday got back onto the plan I set up last month. With frisbee 3x/week I think that big gains in the gym will have to wait until the fall. After (hopefully) Regionals in early October. We got the final tournament schedule for Joose and it is as follows:
August 1/2: Summer Daze Disc Harvest in Worton, MD
August 15/16: Summer Glazed Daze in Winston-Salem, NC (won't be at this one because of the beach)
August 29: Horsetown Throwdown in Poolesville, MD (I guess the team came together too late to get a bid to the Chesapeake Open, which is a much bigger tournament)
September 19/20: Sectionals in Upperville, VA
October 3/4: Regionals in Upperville, VA (se espera)

Hurray for frisbee tournaments! Continuing the disjointed and rambling nature of this post, I just opened the 2008 UNDP Human Development Report and haven't even started reading it yet but noticed that at least half the credited staff (some of the names are of indeterminate gender to my ignorant self) and a majority of the leadership of the report are women. Cool.

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

some new books

I'm almost done with Midnight's Children, so I got to thinking about what I'd like to read next. Then once that ball was rolling it was hard to stop and I came up with this order from Amazon:
  • Lolita, by Vladimir Nabokov
  • The Mantle of the Prophet: Religion and Politics in Iran, by Roy Mottahedeh
  • Do No Harm: How Aid Can Support Peace - or War, by Mary Anderson
  • Refugee Health: An Approach to Emergency Situations, by Medecins Sans Frontieres
  • Millions Saved: Proven Successes in Global Health, by Ruth Levine
  • The White Man's Burden: Why the West's Efforts to Aid the Rest Have Done So Much Ill and So Little Good, by William Easterly

Looking at it now this next bout of reading is awfully subtitle-heavy. Also soul-searchy. I guess I'm trying to figure out a bit more about the big picture of actual aid work. And read Lolita, finally.

walking

Via Maggie Hannapel, whom I have not seen or talked to in a long time, but whose screen name still pops up when I sign into gmail, a quote from Thomas Jefferson:
The object of walking is to relax the mind. You should therefore not permit yourself even to think while you walk; but divert yourself by the objects surrounding you. Walking is the best possible exercise.

The past couple of days have been frustrating exercise-wise. I hurt my back while doing front squats on Monday. The pain isn't as bad today as yesterday, but I'm still uncomfortable and won't be lifting heavy for a while. But that quote from Jefferson reminds me of two things. First, I can still exercise, I must still exercise. It doesn't have to be intense, but the discomfort I feel while twisting or bending doesn't excuse me to just sit around and mope. Second, that there is absolutely no greater joy in life for me than to surrender myself to simple curiosity. I haven't really explored the blocks around my new neighborhood yet. I've been driving through them for one reason or another since I was little but there are one-way side-streets and little circles and alleys that I've never been on. Today will not be a day for testing my limits but rather for getting rid of the limits I've imposed on myself by my rapidly-solidifying routine.

Time for a walk.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

gladwell

I am not a fan of Blink or The Tipping Point, to put it mildly. I have ranted plenty about this before. But it's possible that one reason why this guy gets my dander up is that he's obviously a very smart guy (lazy word choice, I know). So why does he choose to squander his gifts writing dreck like Blink? For the money, I guess. His review in this week's New Yorker of a new book called Free, by Chris Anderson, is really, really interesting. Oh well.

Monday, June 29, 2009

more links

Found this website somehow or other (I forget whose blog I started at). Science-Based Medicine is full of articles about, well, the name should be pretty self-explanatory. They seem to be pretty anti-chiropractic/acupuncture/homeopathy. This is interesting to me because I just had acupuncture for the first time on Saturday morning, with mixed results. Jack has positively loved it, Dad was kind of indifferent to it, and I fell somewhere in between. The guy was quite enthusiastic about some of the same things I've become interested in over the past year (i.e. kinesiology and nutrition), but I'm not really sure the acupuncture helped my toe or ankle in a significant way. The toe actually does feel a little better, even today, than it has for quite some time, but the ankle is back to its stiff self. Not to mention the fact that he "missed" with one of the needles in my toe and I don't know what he hit but it HURT like nobody's business. So the rest of the session was not actually particularly relaxing. Even though the other needles felt fine, I was tense before each one he put in my feet.

Also, Mom has been trying to get her office on the blog bandwagon for a long time now, and just made her first post. Go Mom! It's here. Much bloggier than I expected. Plus it's pretty positive-minded instead of being droll and sarcastic, which is un-bloggy but actually refreshing. There are enough masters of snark out there.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

micafone testing one two fee, in da pace to be

UPDATE: table now displays correctly. The HTML just looks hideous.

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Whew, got a little carried away there. What a great song. I wish today was Sunday...

Anyhow, the themes of this post are testing and goals. I started a thread on JP Fitness Forums for my dearest goal of dunking. Because I currently have the vertical jump of a very athletic 12-year old, this will take a quite a lot of hard work on three major things: strength, power and elasticity. And because I've been working haphazardly on these things for several months, to some but not enough success, I'm going to start with a solid month-to-month plan for the final five months of the year.

So here's a table (the stupid piece of crap won't display right, even though it's unbelievably basic...please scroll down) with my current numbers and goal numbers:

nowgoal
height5'11"n/a
weight165#165#
dead lift335#400#
front squat245#300#
vertical jump28"36"
overhead press115#165#
bench press185#245#
pull ups1320
10-yard dash1.68s1.55s
20-yard dash2.56s2.4s
40-yard dash4.69s4.5s
dot drill53s45s

Monday, June 15, 2009

two unrelated and awesome videos

Saw two great videos this morning. The first is about the difference between running in shoes and running barefoot (or in this case, in socks). The girl in the video had no instructions except to run on the treadmill in shoes and then in socks. The difference is just amazing (slap slap slap...it just hurts to watch when I see people run like that) and I can tell you from personal experience that while I find it easy as pie to run on my forefoot when I'm in my Five Fingers, Vivo Barefoots or, well, just barefoot, it's nearly impossible to run that way in sneakers except at a dead sprint. And even then it just feels wrong: my feet are too heavy, I want to slap slap slap. I went to the track with Jack yesterday and ran a bunch of sprints barefoot and it just felt so good. Yet another article about the advantages of being barefoot (not just for running but for everything) are at iamgeekfit. (How did I not know about this website before!?!? I am geek fit, for crying out loud! It's in the links now, along with a couple of other geeky-ass fitness sites.) Anyhow, here's the video:

And now, for something completely different. H/t to my coworker Dan. Here's "Arlington: The Rap."

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

computer

Well, I finally sucked it up and bought a new computer and printer. You can see it here. I'll get a rebate for the printer so that part will end up being free. I've been getting by fine with Mom's at home, but I don't really want to be constantly borrowing my new roommate's laptop once I move out. Seems like the wrong foot to get started off on.

Speaking of which, I'm planning to meet up with the guy I'm replacing tomorrow night. This will be kind of a packed weekend. Tomorrow my coworker who's going to Fletcher in the fall is having a good-bye happy hour after work. Following that, the above-mentioned meetup with Jonathan (also, by amazing coincidence, going to Fletcher...they even met at orientation there a month or so ago) and Eyal, my roommate-to-be. Friday there's some kind of post-work happy hour, the details of which I forget. Saturday morning Mom and Dad leave for SFO, I have frisbee from noon until sometime in the afternoon, who knows what Jack and I will do Saturday afternoon/night and then we head to Old Rag for a day of hiking on Sunday.

On a different note, it's been one week since I got back from Chile. I haven't really written about that trip at all, I realize. Don't really have it in me to start right now. Another time I will write about it. I wish I'd taken more pictures.

On still another note, I was having a hard time getting into Notes From Underground, so I'm switching to a book that I had a hard time getting into the first two times around, Midnight's Children. Maybe it's just getting to be hot and sticky, but I feel like Dostoevsky is a bit too old-fashioned and not zippy enough for my state of mind at the moment. I can see why people think Dostoevsky is an all-timer, but honestly I've been knee-deep in heavy stuff for a little while and it's time for a break. Rushdie is a bit better but really what I want is some Ellmore Leonard, some Peter Hoeg. Something less thoughtful, vaguely ridiculous...I don't know.

And on that note, I think I'll go to the library and get me some Ellmore Leonard.

Monday, June 01, 2009

eventful

It's been a busy little while since my last post. I finished 2666 on the way to Chile and started reading Eichmann in Jerusalem. I liked 2666 a lot in the end. It's pretty crazy and all over the place and I completely forgot about the third part by the time I'd finished the fifth (and final) part. The fourth part is extremely, almost soporifically repetitive but I somehow never got bogged down in it past the occasional, "Damn it, not this shit again." And the last part was pretty wonderful. In the end the book made a lot of sense, was full of some very beautiful writing (good job, translator whose name I forget). I will not forget the first and final parts, which are books unto themselves (actually, all the parts are), and the middle was good, too. How's that for repetitive?

Anyhow, a book I will most certainly NOT be forgetting any part of is Eichmann in Jerusalem. I would give just about anything for a few minutes of thinking as clear as Hannah Arendt's while she was writing this book. Who knows, maybe she could barely put her shoes on in the morning but when it came to thinking about ethics, justice and law she was operating on a whole different level from the rest of us. One of the most amazing insights she had was that there is a gigantic gap between ordinary murder and genocide not just in scale but also in kind. Eichmann was NOT a murderer. What he did, which was to participate actively and willingly in the attempted eradication of whole groups of people, was far worse than murder.

Murder is a crime against a person or small (relatively) set of people. There are laws on the books just about everywhere that say you can't just go out and kill someone. But genocide is a crime that takes place as a norm. That is, what Eichmann did was follow not only the law in the Reich, he followed the prevailing mores of his time and place. The fact of the killing is incomprehensibly horrible. But what's really, really scary about it is not that the Nazis killed so many people, it's that they managed to create an environment in which killing millions was all in a day's work for ordinary bureaucrats like Adolf Eichmann. A similar rule applies to the more recent genocides in Rwanda and the Balkans. Things weren't as clinically efficient in those places as in Nazi Germany, but there's no doubt that huge groups of people came to believe that killing off another group or groups wholesale was the thing to do. That conversion of murder into an acceptable act doesn't excuse the participants in the least, of course. It just makes their evilness that much more terrifying.

What a chilling and fascinating story and what a writer!

Monday, May 18, 2009

books

Well I'm about 200 pages from the end of 2666 and I'm not really sure what to think yet. It's very big in a lot of different ways, not just because it's 900 pages long, and there's just a huge amount to take in. This is the second very large book I've read in the past few months (along with Infinite Jest) and it's interesting to think about them both in terms of sheer volume. I like it a lot, is all I'll say for now.

The next two books on my list I bought myself last week after hemming and hawing for a while. First is Eichmann in Jerusalem, by Hannah Arendt. Professor Markovits talked a lot about Arendt and the whole fallout from the post-WW2 Nazi trials. Eichmann's trial came way after Nuremberg, but it's still a question of being tried in one country for crimes committed in another. Given present circumstances and the hope that, if our leaders are too weak to prosecute their predecessors for the war crimes that were obviously, unquestionably, committed, then maybe some other country will have the guts to demand extradition like Israel did. Not to say that Donald Rumsfeld is as bad as the Nazis, or even Slobodan Milosevic and Omar El Bashir, but it's a matter of degree. They're all war criminals, but Rummy's just weren't nearly as bad as theirs. Anyhow I can't wait to see what the whole Eichmann thing was about, and why everyone is STILL up in arms about Arendt's book.

The other is Notes from Underground, by Fyodor Dostoevsky. I guess he's one of those guys that doesn't need his first name anymore, because I feel a bit silly or self-congratulatory or something putting it there. But I've been meaning for a while to start reading some more classics, and why not start with that? My sense of its context is a lot less developed than my sense of Eichmann, but I can't wait to read it, either.

But they both have to wait until I'm done with the last part of 2666.

Friday, May 01, 2009

this just in: steroids are technology, just like glasses -- UPDATE

H/t to Dad for sending me a link to this article in Salon about why steroids (and, by obvious extension, other performance enhancers) aren't cheating anymore than are wearing contact lenses or using some new training technology.

I feel pretty strongly about my view that taking performance-enhancing drugs is not cheating and have been making the arguments that the author of the above article makes for years. Not to say that they're original to me, obviously; I'm sure I read them somewhere else. But still, it's nice to have some validation from a highfalutin' philosophy professor at Berkeley that my own personal logic regarding this issue holds water.

Preach, Alva Noe. Preach.

UPDATE From an interview with Lyle McDonald, of Body Recomposition, well, not really fame, but whatever.
TTT: What is your opinion about steroids in general?

LM: In general, I think used in reasonable doses intelligently, they are exceedingly safe and provide an enormous amount of benefits under certain situations (such as muscle loss with aging and various wasting diseases). I think used in absurd doses unintelligently, they can cause problems but not nearly the types of problems that the scare-mongering media tends to ascribe to them.

I’d tend to say the same thing about almost any drug you care to name. People always want to blame a drug for something or other but it’s more about how a drug is used than the drug itself that is the issue. Used intelligently, many drugs are completely safe; used unintelligently they are not. Is it the drug or the use that’s at fault.

TTT: What is your opinion on steroids in professional sports?

LM: I think they are a reality of modern day sport and have been for a solid 30-40 years. I think that anybody who thinks we can ever clean up sport and get drugs out of the equation is naïve as hell. Humans are creatures of opportunity and people will always look for an advantage so even if you get 99 out of 100 people to stop using drugs, that 100th will just see it as a chance to get an advantage over the others.

Frankly, I think people should get over it, legalize everything, let the athletes get proper medical advice without having to source drugs from unreliable sources so that they can protect their health. I think that’s better than the current model where most use but have to lie about it. I know the public wants to believe that performances in modern day sport can be accomplished without drugs but, in general, that’s simply not the case.

Any time they have managed to ‘clean up’ a sport (Olympic weightlifting comes to mind), nobody can even get close to the old world records. Drugs simply provide too much of a benefit to performance (and in being able to handle the training loads required at that level) for anyone to come close doing it clean. So either people get used to mediocre, non-world record performances or they accept that drugs are here to stay.


Again, damn right.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

vacation, back to work

Well, my vacation was amazing. Hard to know where to start, so I'll just start with the places I went: Barcelona, Montpellier, Nimes, Sete, Palavas, Limoux, unknown village hosting a wine festival. Saw Gabby and Jon, Cori, Sam Falik and Colleen Rozier (!). Met a bunch of cool people that I'll probably never see again. Took a ton of pictures (I'll upload some later).

Now I'm back at work, and it's same-old, same-old, pretty much. That's alright, but I'm reeeally hoping not to be in this job longer than a year. Mind-numbingly easy tasks are getting quite old, as is being at the absolute bottom of the organization. I've basically got to get promoted or go to grad school, I've decided, because otherwise I'm afraid I'll get stuck in an admin-only loop. No one will hire someone without prior development or program experience, of which I have (and can get) very little in my current job. No one, that is, except the organization you already work for. Come on, CHF!

Lots of other things going on: Jack is home; I'm looking to move out again (those two things are unrelated); frisbee is starting up again (Quick Decisions is now Huckin' Around, and I think we're 4-2); workouts are, well, going. On that last item, two addenda: Jack came with me to the gym last Saturday to do a session with Jim so that he could learn the basic lifts. Not sure whether he'll keep coming or not, but I hope he does. Also, I'm going to do a speed workout with Graham (one of the gym's owners) on Thursday so that I can learn what's the matter with my technique -while accelerating, decelerating, cutting and running at top speed- and how to make it better. Looking forward to that.

Okay, back to work. Powers of Attorney are calling my name.